The Week When I Passed All Uni Exams

First off, I would just like to thank every single person who left a comment under my last 'The Week When...' post. I was positively overwhelmed by the response and I just couldn't believe the amount of support I got from people who haven't even met me yet. You are one lovely bunch! 

Now, let's move on to the short summary of the past two weeks. The week before last was pretty boring. I was spending my days behind textbooks and taking care of my sick dog, while my sister was partying her booty off and my parents were away in Rome. Fun times! But all the stress is now forgotten, because I passed my last two university exams! Even the one that has been eating my nerves for the past two years. You know, the one that I've talked about here. And guess what? I even got the best grade possible! I was over the moon! Now I only have the final bachelor's exam to pass in September, which we have to take instead of doing the Bachelor's thesis for some reason. Everyone is a bit confused when I mention this exam to them, because it's not the most usual thing. I feel like we're the only department that has it? :D

Fast forward to this week, there's only one event I can think of - spending Saturday at the seaside, trying to promote my online store. I suffer from a pretty severe social anxiety, and having to go up to people I don't know and talk to them is my worst nightmare. As I assumed, the fear got the best of me, and I managed to give out only four flyers over the span of seven hours. Four. Thank god my sister and my relatives, who were there doing a promotion for their own online store helped me out. I was so disappointed with myself! I felt like the biggest loser ever, and the fact that I was being pressured and made fun of the whole way through did not help the situation one bit. I wish some people would understand how having social anxiety really feels like. It's not that I don't want to do certain things or feel a bit shy about doing it, I'm literally freaked out to the point I would rather die. It's also not something I can just 'grow out of' by being continously exposed to situations I'm freaked out about, as my family seem to think. It's a bit more complicated and well, complex. I don't want to go into details now, because I'm not sure you would want to hear about my experience with social anxiety, but in case you do, I can film a video and explain all about it. Just let me know in the comment section if you would like to see it. And feel free to leave me questions if there's something particular you want me to answer. 

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  1. Čestitke za opravljenje izpite!! Mene čakajo 3 v tem tednu, pa že zgubljam živce. Kar se pa tiče letakov, verjemi da meni nebi uspelo niti 4ih potalat okoli :D Enostavno ne morem govoriti s tujci, ne gre in ne gre. Jaz bi letake kar metala okoli, samo da nebi bilo treba govoriti haha :D Drugače mi je pa še huje govoriti pred veliko skupino ljudi (predstavitve na faxu...)...takrat bi daredila vse, da bi se pogreznila v zemljo. =/ Tako da ti si še dobra ;)

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    1. Uff, vso srečo, vem kako je. Jaz sem jih enkrat sedem v petih dneh imela. :/ Haha, ja, tudi jaz bi najraje helikopter najela pa jih iz zraka dol vrgla. Drugače je pa tudi pri meni še 100x huje, če moram pred skupino ljudi govoriti. Na začetku mi je bilo zelo težko na faksu, kasneje malo lažje, ampak to je bilo samo zato, ker sem ljudi že poznala. Pred neznanci mi je še vedno obupno govoriti.

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  2. Čestitke za opravljene izpite! :) Tudi mene še čakajo ta teden 3, pa še naslednji teden nekaj, tako da sem trenutno pod precejšnim stresom. :/
    Sem pa tudi jaz ena tistih, ki ima fuuul velik strah govorit s tujci.. prihoda v srednjo šolo in faks me je vedno blo najbolj strah ravno zaradi tega, ker pač nisem ena tistih, ki takoj pristopi do nepoznanih ljudi in začne veselo klepetati. Da ne omenjam govornih nastopov, raznoraznih predstavitev v srednji šoli..Prav grozno se počutim zaradi tega, ker mam občutek, da potem ljudje vedno dobijo slab (prvi) vtis o meni - da sem neka važna oseba, ki se kao noče pogovarjat.. Ampak, ko enkrat spoznam vredu ljudi, se fajn vklopim in nisem med najbolj tihimi osebami. :) 'Treme' pred vedno novimi takimi situacijami pa se tudi meni nikakor ne da znebit.. Tako, da te popolnoma razumem.
    Bi pa z veseljem pogledala video o tvojih izkušnjah s tem. :))

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    1. Hvala! Vso srečo! Ja, tudi pri meni je tako. Jaz nikoli ne pristopim do oseb pa še 'resting bitch face' imam, tako da jih večina na žalost misli, da sem vzvišena. Ko pa ljudi poznam, sem pa lahko tudi jaz zelo zgovorna. :D

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  3. Prvič je vedno najtežje :D
    Sicer te pa čisto razumem, tut jst ne maram s tujci govort. Ponavadi si pol kr začnem predstavljat kako jst odreagiram v taki situaciji, ko naprimer dobim letak, promocijo... ponavadi rečem hvala, vprašam kaj pa se s tem tolažim, da tut drugi naredijo podobno in od mene ne bodo zahteval da delam stoje pa prevale al kaj takega :)

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    1. Oh, ko bi vsaj vsi ljudje rekli hvala in lepo odkorakali stran, potem bi mi bilo stokrat bolj prijetno to delat. V mojem primeru so vsi stran bežali ali pa zasikali 'ne', ko sem jim ponudila letak. :/

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  4. Čestitke za opravljene izpite :)
    Joj dobra si da si jih sploh podelila toliko :), jaz tujcev niti pogledati ne morem, kaj šele da bi jih ogovorila in jim dala letak. Grozen filing je, sploh če te nekdo sili v to :/ Da ne govorim o kakšnih govornih nastopih, tudi če nastopam pred dobrimi prijatelji me je strah da se kar tresem...

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    1. Hvala! Haha, 4 res ni veliko. Mogla bi jih 400. Drugače pa ja, res je grozno...

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  5. Čestitke za izpita :))
    Jst tudi ne maram govorit s tujci. Folk ko me spozna mi vedno reče, prvič ko sem te spoznal si bila zadržana in tiha, in potem pa popolno nasprotje. Sej u prihodnje bo že boljše, pomoje morš najdit feeling in pol boš delila te letake kot po maslu :))

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  6. I know what's it's like to have some social anxiety! It's made me skip club meetings and activities and a writing contest I was really proud to be a part of. :( It's made me feel like I can't measure up to people's expectations of me and I'll always be judged no matter what. I decided it was better I not get involved in social interactions if it was just going to make me imagine terrible situations. Perhaps, you can figure out the source(s) of your social anxiety and try to ameliorate the problem(s)? I know mine is from low self-esteem, and it has started to improve ever since I started to prioritize myself and hang out with my friends again.

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  7. congrats for passing those exams, now go ahead and relax and enjoy ;) <3

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  8. Čestitke za vse opravljene izpite! Sicer pa res ne vem kako je to z social anxiety, ampak glede na opisano je pomoje že tud nekaj, da si vsak tistih par letakov uspela razdelit. Small steps :)

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  9. How did I miss this post? Congrats on passing your exams! I know you were really worried about it! I know what you mean about social anxiety, I don't think mine is a very bad case but there are still situations that make me very uncomfortable. Would love to see a video on it if you're comfortable talking about it! xx

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