Monthly Personal Update


Some of you might have noticed that my weekly posts have disapperaed from planet Earth. To be honest, I have no excuse apart from me finally having a life (and being a bit confused). After four years of working on my blog pretty much all the time, it feels weird being 'away'. I mean, I have put up posts here and there but I'm feeling quite detached from the whole blogging world right now. Lack of time and barely-existing wi-fi are the main two reasons I've been posting and interacting with you less, but while this is something that has been driving me mental, I feel like the sometimes-voluntary-sometimes-involuntary absence also gave me a very much needed break.

In the past year, I reached a point where I started seeing my blog as my job. In a non-financial way, obviously, as this is still very much only my hobby and not my source of income. Don't get me wrong, I enjoy doing it very much, I always have and I think I always will, but I started putting this weird pressure on myself for no apparent reason. I felt stressed out when I didn't put up a post on the day I decided it was supposed to go up; I was often disappointed with how my posts or videos turned out; I felt discouraged by the lack of feedback/views; and I started comparing myself to other, bigger, better bloggers. Basically, I've been digging myself a hole and started questioning if what I do has any purpose at all. I felt like I wasted so much time on it for nothing and considered quitting it all together more times I would like to admit. But here I am, still kicking. As I have said, I love blogging and quitting it would probably do my mental state more harm than good. I just decided to take another approach. I'm going back to the old ways, treating my blog as my hobby with the capital H, posting whenever I feel like it with no schedules or pressure. Screw the views! When I started blogging, my sister has been the only person who was reading my blog. For a year. No joke. And you know what? If my journey ends with just her catching up with my blabbering from time to time, then so be it. I started blogging when it wasn't 'cool' yet, without any sort of expectations, mainly to have some kind of an outlet, so why have I started putting so much pressure on myself? I have no idea. I just know that it has to stop. 

On a different note, what has been happening with me, you ask? Well, a lot, haha. I don't even recognize myself anymore sometimes. Don't worry, I'm still the same old me, I'm just a lot more go-go-go. After spending a year mainly just sitting at home in front of my laptop, it feels weird being on the move all the time. London and its fast-paced way of life got under my skin. In the last two months, I only had one 'staying inside the house' day. There's so much going on in London it would be a shame to miss all the exciting things. My 'social' life has been so busy compared to the one back home that I have a feeling I've been living here for years, not just a few months. I don't even remember anymore all the things I've done recently. There was a lot of restaurant visits, Christmas markets, Winter Wonderland and of course shopping. I've been shopping A LOT. From Primark to Harrods, there are very few stores I haven't set my foot in yet. I've mostly been looking for Christmas presents, but I treated myself to a few bits and pieces as well. I'll show you everything (minus the gifts) in my upcoming haul video whenever I decide to film it. 

Oh, I almost forgot to tell you one of the greatest news ever. It looks like I'll finally be attending a concert. Yes, I'm almost 23 and I haven't been to a proper concert before. Don't judge. Blame the ridiculously small country I'm coming from and plans never working out. But it's safe to say I picked the best first concert. I'm going to see Ed Sheeran! I still can't believe I managed to get tickets. He's one of my favourite artists and I can't wait to see him perform live in July. Especially now that he's released Thinking Out Loud. I'm obsessed. And possibly in love. 

13 comments :

  1. Ta prvi odstavek je fenomenalen. Imam ravno v draftu nekaj podobnega glede blogov kot hobijev/službe in sem nameravala objavit prejšnji teden, ampak se še odločam če bi, ker je prešlo v majhen rant in nočem da bi katera kaj vzela preveč osebno :)
    Sem pa itak ekstremno favš, da greš na koncert od Eda :)

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    1. Uf, ja, jaz imam tudi še veliko več za povedat o tej temi ampak se zaenkrat še zadržujem zaradi istega razloga. :D

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  2. Jeeej, Ed Sheeran! Jaz sem bila na Dunaju in je blo amazing! :)) Nepozabno bo, boš vidla. ;) Uživaj! xx

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    1. Jaz sem mela tut plane na tisti dunajski koncert it s sestro, ampak ne vem kaj je potem pršlo vmes, da ona ni mogla. Sem bla čist depresivna, tko da zdej še bolj komi čakam, haha.

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  3. Se kar najdem v tem postu... In glede bloga in glede lajfa, se mi zdi, da je pri nas vse tako zaspano, nič se ne dogaja v nasprotju, če greš kam v tujino živet.. Glede bloga pa te pogrešamo, ampak uživaj real life do konca in se ne obremenjuj, če nekaj ne napišeš :D važno, da uživaš in je tisti začetni stres minil :)

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    1. Hvala! Ja, jaz se pri nas sploh nisem najdla, tuki pa vedno kaj najdeš za delat. :D

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  4. Joj London in lučke, sploh ne znam povedat kok sm ti fouš zarad tega :) Kar se pa blogganja tiče, mislim, da za vse bloggerke velja, da je najbolje, če v prvi vrsti pišeš blog zato, ker v tem uživaš :) Tako da te čisto podpiram v ideji, da se ne sekiraš če, naprimer, ne objavljašp redno :) Meni je tvoj blog všeč, in te bom brala ne glede na to, ali boš objavljala redno po urniku ali ne :)
    Uživaj v Angliji še za tiste izmed nas, ki letos tja žal ne moremo :) :D

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  5. Super post! Jaz od vsega začetka blogganje jemljem kot svoj hobby :) objavljaš kdaj želiš, kaj želiš, za svojo dušo :)
    Meni je tvoj blog všeč in ga bom brala še naprej, četudi bodo objave bolj redke :)
    Uživaj v božičnem Londonu <3.

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  6. Sandra I love your blog, don't you ever stop :D!! Just post whenever you feel like it and keep us updated on your lovely life and makeup and fashion loves. I'm also excited to see and read what you get up to in London. Photo diaries? The occasional teensy tiny vlog ;)? No pressure of course :p. You write wonderfully for someone whose native language is not English. You must never stop sharing your writing.
    I lived in London for two years, 12 years ago now when I was young (doddery voice), so I can just imagine what life is like for you now. The place rocks and rolls and never goes to sleep. Enjoy it!!!

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    1. Thank you Bella for your constant encouraging comments. They always make my day! :)
      I feel like Instagram is some sort of a photo diary for me, but I'll also try to take more photos with my camera for my blog from now on. I'm really enjoying photography at the moment and there are some books waiting for me at home to help me improve my skills once I return back to London. I can't wait to dive in, practice and publish the results. :) Vlogging is on the cards as well, but I just feel so awkward vlogging in public and then due to the nature of my job, I can't vlog around the house either. Maybe I can start doing weekly vlogs once I get my own place in the summer? If I even manage to find it, of course, haha.

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  7. Oh, kako te razumem, sploh to zmedenost, ko nečesa nisi navajen, pa se zdaj navajaš (: Pa ko ni časa za blog in se počutiš tako slabo zaradi neobjavljanja. Pa naj kar napišem, da sem se tudi jaz našla v skoraj vseh besedah. Ampak morem ti povedat, da tvoj blog raste in da si lahko brez skrbi. Še vedno radi zahajamo na njega. ((: In še nekaj. Res občudujem to poved: "When I started blogging, my sister has been the only person who was reading my blog. For a year. No joke. And you know what? If my journey ends with just her catching up with my blabbering from time to time, then so be it."
    Super sestro imaš in ona ima super tebe: :D
    Btw, glasbena podlaga je super in videospot zažiga, očk kar nisem mogla otrgat. (:

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